Laughing Gas + Funeral = Me

ah my heart a very complicated organ... and my feelings... well they come from my liver...

Sunday, April 16, 2006

think about it...

i wrote this song for a very good friend of mine... i love him very much and don't want him to get hurt anymore... it's called "Real Life Fairytale" cuz really our life is like a 'fairytale' but it just sucks anyway, so here goes...

A Real Life Fairytale

Have you yet realized
There isn't much to smile at?
Life is a worthless journey through what seems to be Hell
And you are alone...

You love her, you love her when you cry
And she knows that
She just wants to be the reason for your tears
And the blood coming out of your heart...

You love her too much
But she'll never love you like you love her
She ripped your heart out
And you're crying all alone and nobody cares.

Liar!!
Cuz I care, and others would too
If only you opened your heart and cried
You gotta learn how to cry, without making a joke out of it...

You say she has stolen your heart
So? ask for it back fucker!
Fuck her! she's hurt you again and again
We'll all be here in the end

You love her too much
But she'll never love you like you love her
She ripped your heart out
And you're crying all alone and nobody cares.

Have you ever thought it would be nice to be fragile?
Then maybe someone would be gentle
But boy open your eyes and see
We've all been gentle, she's the blade...

Learn not to love her, it will be hard
She'll never know what she meant to you
Take back your heart and put it back in
Cry no more or know you have someone to cry with...
I love you...

Friday, April 14, 2006

What if?

I've stopped to think and wonder
What if it had happened like that?
But it's worthless I learned that
In this world full of shame

Mary, I ask you one thing
What if he hadn't died?
What if that guy hadn't killed him?
His bestfriend's father
You would've been at my house the next day
We would've been playing piano all day long
Nonstop, songs coming out of our hands
We would've shared that moment together
We would still be friends
Today...

Everyday I stop to wonder
What if it had happened like that?
But it's worthless I learned that
Cuz I've lost a lifetime in worries

Noul I regret one thing,
The thing that could've made us both happy.
What if I had said yes
To that question you asked and I took as a joke?
Now only God and you know the truth about that.
If I had said 'yes'
The girls would've never said those lies
Which to this day stand.

Everyday I stop to wonder
What if it hadn't happened like that?
But it's worthless I learned that
Cuz I've lost a lifetime in worries

I've stopped to think
I've stopped to think
But I only cry and everyone around me does too
I've already died... a broken heart in my hands...

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Whispers

What happens now
Stays in tomorrow
The queen has entered her reign
Her desire intensifies
The skies are darkened, tainted with blood
Cry now, next you'll die

Dive stop time
Walk (walk, fall)
Follow that path (come with me)
Is that worth a lie?
As the stars start to collide

Fire
Water
Air
Earth

Love is fair, that's why it ain't mean for you
Destiny is far from reality
Now live it
Drown in your mirror

It's perfect, by nature
Now listen
They're calling your name
Don't ignore their whispers
They want you
You need them
Kill me
Then bury yourself in my blood

Look at their face
Smile back
Now run
Don't say goodbye
Follow them
Deep into the Great Darkness
Cheat Death
They want you there

Don't think and take that chance
Breathe once more
One last time
Now dive one last time

Saturday, April 01, 2006

I Forgot You

I Forgot You

I'll go over this one last time
How could this happen to my mind?
How could it?
How would it?

I loved you, wanted our love so much
Then I asked but you simply said this wasn't a good time
So I decided we would still be friends
And I still felt a lot for you, but decided to hide it instead.

You look at me everyday
So sure of yourself
But me, my heart is in a million pieces
And it always happens that when I'm done pickin'up the pieces
You smile again, and it breaks apart.

Some say 'nothing grows where there was once a forest'
But they were mistaken
Cuz something happened in my heart from night to morning
My love for you faded to black.

[No!]This is something I can't undo
What has fucking happened?
I forgot you
But I don't want to.
[God]is there anyway to change this?
It hurts me even more than knowing I won't have you
I'm falling and I'll keep on falling
'Till all this shit stops.

I look at you
You smile and I smile back, normal
I can touch you now
You won't burn me

This day goes so fast not slow like all my life
But it hurts double to know I don't love you
I miss you!
And you're sitting right next to me...

Used to feel it's horrible to miss someone who's next to you
But now not even that hits me
I can kiss you like anyone else
And it means absolutely nothing, but a simple 'hello' and 'goodbye'.

And now I see...

This is something I can't undo
What has fucking happened?
I forgot you
But I don't want to.
Is there anyway to change this?
It hurts me even more than knowing I won't have you
I'm falling and I'll keep on falling
'Till all this shit stops

And it starts to rain
You look at me and kiss me
Tell me you've always loved me
But it means absolutely nothing

I think if I'll ever love again
And I laugh at what you've said
Now it's your turn to cry
I dance with you in the rain
Then I look straight at you and tell you 'No it's better off this way'
And leave, laughing at myself
As I hear you cry.
Fuck you bitch!